2 feelings as a result…

I was not good (enough) today at my IMPORTANT meeting…….. strugglestruggelistruggeling…….d o n t h i n k i w i l l g e t h e j o b...

My head was spinning, i was not there at all. i kept looking at myself instead of just JUMP… 

dare, take it easy, think, don't think, feel, but control it, be spontaneous, but how?……

I met with an old co worker i met before i crashed….. he makes me tingle… i have been thinking about him and met him last week.. and now i meet him again, is it a sign?

Well. im happy to even have tingling feelings, have not had them since like….ehhhheee…. october last year?????(OMG!!!)

Lucky for me its 2 feelings of contradiction, one good feel one bad and sad feel...

Now im gonna try to enjoy the beautiful stockholm weather. Try to figure out how to deal with my "failure"… 

Then im gonna watch swedish idol.. ive become such a boring old shoe…