why oh why boy oh boy...

My automatic thoughts about life is now very limited.. Instead of the big things like earth, God, why and where.. im thinking..
men...
wonder if i do that to stop me from thinking??
theres ben a terrible misstake.. my co worker that i told you about... I thought. ok .. time for ME to make a choice and go for it! So i went kind of obviously flirting and writing. And he is so liking me to! But kind of not responding anyway. So i went further...
Then i met my friend yesterday she told me he has a wife with cancer!!!!